my day...

yeah, yeah... i know my blog still lives!
it's exactly a month ago i created this blog
not like am likely to forget oh!
and yes! it is highly improbable i'd fill it consistently
like other 'normal' people!
(see lekeosi.blogspot.com - the guy lives on the Net!)
if you are wondering why am filling my blog today?
it's like my birthday present to my blog.(duh?)
yeah! you guessed right. it is my birthday!
am at work (of course am supposed to be at work!
who ever gets the day off 'cos it's their birthday? - incase you get a day off on your birthday, let me know. i could, hmmm...
it could be my birthday again, soon - maybe a couple of times before the end of the month)

back to being at work...
only one of my colleagues knows what today is,
and of course a few close friends and family.
by the way that colleague of mine has been sworn to secrecy...
why? am not sure, really. i just don't ... know.
this colleague of mine is the only grown up i know,
who has not lost the ability to enjoy life the way only a child can.
that is something we lose touch with as we grow older.
(story for another day - if i ever get to write it!)
and congrats on your new car, friend! we are all excited about it.

okay, back to the birthday story.
where was i? hmmm... okay.
yeah i was telling you about the secrecy thingy!
oh well, am yet to decide whether i'll do that thing we do,
where you buy 'lunch' for everyone in the office.
i did a lot of 'sober reflections' and well,
am not where i want to be, where i thought i'd be at by now.
(am sure you know that a lady isn't supposed to tell, bla bla bla)
two years ago, i got a new printer from my folks!
last year i was 'pissed' with a boyfriend of many years
(now 'ex' by the way...)
who still couldn't remember my birthday after all the 'many years'
(they say some people are like that)
i think if you appreciate the importance of an issue to a loved one,
you'd especially keep that issue in mind, right? so i think.
this year... am keeping my birthday from 'everybody',
don't ask me why, 'cos am still not sure!
you know, i'd always thought by now, i'd have a car,
own a house (financial stability) and most of all, have my own family - a husband who i love and loves me, and kids i'd teach in the way of the Lord.
i thought by now i'd have finalised a lot of plans and issues concerning INTELLECT - sponsorship, structure, outreach, grants, operation centre(s), etc.
have a trust fund, that gives scholarships to inopportuned brilliant pupils.
i thought by now i would have 'started' to make that difference i was created for.
INTELLECT is a heart felt dream of mine.
it is an NGO whose aim is to intellectually empower the less privileged,
with focus on the primary and secondary school aged ones.
i have always wondered how feeding and clothing the less privilege, can better their lives. how giving 20bucks or even a 100 would make a difference in their lives.
please don't misconstrue, it IS important to cloth and feed them.
but is there really any hope for the young primary/secondary school age ones?
where a university graduate has such a hard time getting, keeping a job and making ends meet.
WHEN a university graduate comes up to say he/she grew up in the INTELLECT projects, then the dream of INTELLECT would be realised.
the biggest challenge ahead of INTELLECT is the psychological challenged involved for these kids, who know no other life but of one,
where they sleep on the streets, wake up early to go beg on the streets,
wash car windshields and beg some more.
how does one assure, convince them that going to school and putting in all that hardwork,
they could end up owning the type of car they wash,
and enjoy all the other benefits of not having to live on the streets...
the power of freewill (another story yet for another day),
these kids have to want to be a part of the INTELLECT projects.
as usual, to tell the story we'll start from the beginning...
the name registration of INTELLECT is on...

on this memorable day of my life, i do not wish to sound like such an ingrate!
i have to say i have been luckier than most people all my life!
(how can i say it all without seeming to brag, now?)
am blessed with a great intellectual ability,
(i can be terribly lethargic sometimes - it kills me!)
a rather pleasant disposition, really.
and immeasurable potential to be successful in all i do.
all it takes for me to succeed is just to decide to do whatever it is
i set my mind on and God has been FAITHFUL. even in my unfaithfulness.
i can not thank God enough for His unconditional LOVE
and immense GRACE and FAVOUR in my life, all my life.
FATHER LORD TAKE ALL THE GLORY, ALL THE HONOUR, ALL THE PRAISE. YOU ARE WORTHY.
THANK YOU FOR MY SALVATION IN JESUS CHRIST. THANK YOU, FATHER.

i have to rush out right now.
one of my friends ain't feeling so good and i want to go drop him at home,
he doesn't look good enough to drive.
by the way, i think my driving would take his mind off any pain he's feeling. lol.
later.